... too great-but that didn't stop him. As disgusted as he was with himself, Ichigo knew that he wouldn't stop until he fixed what was broken inside of Rukia. She was everything...Nothing else mattered.
His eyes spoke volumes for the misery he felt as he cleared his throat and forced the hated words,"I'm so sorry, but do you honestly think I would ask if I thought there was any other way? You know I love you and Nel and I'm just so fucking sorry..." His voice cracked and Ichigo had to clear it to continue, "I know that all of this is my fault, but she needs this and, even if I wish I didn't...I need her."
Grimm swallowed hard in the face of his friend's pain, but shook his head, "Ya know I fuckin love you, Ichi, and I would do anything else for you, but I can't do this." Grimmjow nodded toward Nel, "I love her with everything I am and I can't do that shit to her...or to you."
Intense amber eyes locked with electric blue as Ichigo quietly pleaded with his best friend. "Sleeping with someone else doesn't mean you don't love Nel. You know that better than anyone. We've done it before-so many times-and you loved her then, but you still did it. You did it because you had to, just like I have to do it ...